I have had many times in my professional career where I have felt stuck and helpless, none as much as with my last employer. I have tried to leave multiple times and multiple ways but God just kept shutting doors.  Or better yet, I was trying to break down doors God had locked. (In recent years, my stubbornness is becoming more and more apparent to me). 

You don’t always know the WHY when you stuck are in the weeds.  I see now looking back the last 4 years that I am not the same person I once was. I have had to exhibit strength and courage that I didn’t even know was inside of me. I thought I was resilient before, but look at me now!

I recently applied for a new position. This was promising position with a great company; ‘my new dream employer’. This company checked all the right boxes.  My first interview, I was over qualified, (Of course it was a fabulous interview, isn’t that the case with interviews that don’t count?)  The second interview, the position was completely out of left field. I had zero interest. After these 2 misguided interviews, I emailed the company recruiter hoping to nudge them in the right direction. Instead, I was told the decisions would be made in the next week. I didn’t want either of those positions I had just interviewed for, so I concluded that God closed yet another door. 

I decided to make my peace staying where I was for another quarter. The same day I made my ‘peace’ to stay put (for the 1000^th time), I had a hard interaction with my ‘infamous’ supervisor. So I did what I always did when frustrated with my professional situation; I looked for a job. It was my therapy. It made me feel in control, like I had options. I went to my dream employer website. I wondered if there were open positions that matched my level of expertise. In a matter of seconds, found my dream position with my dream employer.  

HEAR ME, I applied for this job WEDNESDAY night at 8:15pm. I expected this next round of interviews would be a several weeks down the road. But THURSDAY morning at 8:44am, my phone was ringing. It was my dream employer. The recruiter was calling to offer the position. “Which position?” It was the position that I applied for just 12 hours ago!!! The position I didn’t even interview for!!!! 

When God moves, He moves!!! It may feel slower than molasses while you are stuck in the weeds, but when He comes to your rescue HOLD ON!

MAMA’S CORNER:To my mama friends stuck in the weed patch of infertility, my heart breaks alongside yours. My challenge to you while on this journey is to look for your silver lining. Focus on where you can see God’s fingerprints in your situation. Don’t stop until you do, no matter how small or insignificant. Adopting this silver lining mindset was my saving grace in my infertility journey.