How to do what I know God wants me to do, but in my own safe way? This is a topic I have spent my whole life mastering. You can give me any situation, and I can instantly tell you every potential problem, warning, and negative outcome. My profession is seeing absolute worst things that happen to people on a daily basis, and then helping those people pick up the pieces after these unforeseen events. The side effect to this type of work is you live your life like that same thing is going to happen to you. You let the fear of their reality become yours. It has polluted my world and made me timid. 

I knew I was supposed to start a blog. But I fought fear. I wanted God to find another way. Sharing my story openly meant vulnerability with strangers. I would have no control where MY story went and who read MY story. It felt unsafe to my timid soul. The result of this way of thinking, it took me YEARS to start a blog. (The exact amount of years would only shame me but it was more than one, more than two…. Oh we are getting warmer…. warmer….. HOT!). 

Eventually, I started my blog, BUT I didn’t tell anyone. “Look God, I did what You wanted.”   Technically I did start the blog? That means we are good, right?  Comfort zone living at its finest!  

I may have started my blog, but I ‘hid’ it because I was too afraid to share it with world. I didn’t want to give up control over who got to know MY story.  But God doesn’t ask us to listen to Him, and then tailor His request to our comfort zone. 

Here is what Jesus says, “You are the light of the world A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on the stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.” Matthew 5: 14-15

I am making progress with shining my light. The whisper of this website only took me two months to execute instead of the YEARS it took to start my blog. 

This month is our 9-year Ice Baby Anniversary. In honor of my ice baby, I am no longer hiding my light under a bowl, but I am going to be the “ town built on a hill.” I am giving up control of my story and sharing it with the world. 

Mamas, how are you hiding your light? What is God whispering to you?  Please take my hand, and let’s be brave together. Let’s flip that light switch! One…. Two…. Three…. GO!!!