I woke up this morning… (WOW, that is the world’s most obvious statement!)

I was completely rested and refreshed, without a single care in the world. My mind was blank. I was loose of any weight or worry. This feeling was very foreign to me. I soaked in this calmness wanting it to seep into every pore of my body.

As soon as I acknowledged this nirvana feeling, I could feel my mind kick into overdrive. My mind was uncomfortable with this new feeling. I knew it was only a matter of seconds, before my mind was populated with my normal, numerous, and insignificant worries.

I tried to dissuade my mind from going down that well-worn rabbit trail of worry. Mamas have you ever tried to distract your mind?  Talk about an impossible task! The more I tried to block my mind, the more laser focused it became. It was racing to establish the comfortability of my worry baseline.

I liken this internal scenario to the tug of war between a mom and a toddler. When the mom is trying to fit that bulky sweater of their toddler’s large head. The toddler futilely fights back with flailing arms and tears. Eventually the toddler’s head bursts forth from the tiny neck hole. The toddler is defeated. It never stood a chance against mom’s strength. This sweater battle of wills ends with the toddler carrying the added weight, restriction, and limitation of the bulky sweater.

My defeated toddler moment came. I hadn’t even managed to put workout clothes on before my mind burst forth and my worry sweater was on.  I could feel it.  “Hello weight, welcome back restriction.” Unfortunately my worry equilibrium was back in balance.

Mamas those few seconds of perfect peace were so impactful that I am writing about them right now! Memorializing and savoring what each of those precious seconds felt like. 

As I write this, I am left with a God whisper…

I just had a glimpse of what Heaven FEELS like.

As I let all this sink in, I am now thinking of my 13 little babies waiting for me in heaven. They get to feel like this EVERY SINGLE SECOND, of every single moment, of every single day.

Heaven is void of mom vs toddler battles, and worry sweaters are permanently out of stock.

Now that I know this feeling exists, I can’t wait to wake up tomorrow! Will I get another heavenly worry-free moment? Will the toddler in me be able stave off my worry sweater a few seconds longer? I don’t know the answers to these questions. But I do know, this toddler is wants to be sweater free!

Mamas, if you want to know more about Heaven, please go to the ‘Need a Best Friend?’ page of this website