My husband was away this weekend on a business trip. I started perusing our streaming services for ‘Jackie’ shows. I am assuming I am not alone in this marriage dynamic where there are ‘together’ shows, ‘Jackie’ shows, and “Hubby” shows.  I quickly found a wedding reality show that was like a foreign version of Bridezilla meets Beverly Hills.

Each show showcases 2 couples. It takes you on a quick glimpse of their life, courtship, wedding prep, and then their over-the-top extravagant wedding shenanigans.   

There were only three shows in the season, so it was the perfect weekend watch, I wouldn’t get distracted for too long.  It was the second episode that has consumed much of my thoughts today. I am still just completely sad for the featured bride.  I really don’t know if she is be a narcissist or control freak or both? This bride literally planned every single detail of her wedding:  And I do mean

EVERY.  SINGLE.  DETAIL. 

Her wedding party was worried that there was no whimsy left for the bride since her fingers were in everything. So they secretly planned a surprise-choreographed dance to perform during the ceremony. Somehow the bride found out and cancelled the dance because, for among other reasons, she didn’t approve of their song.

Later in the show came the saddest part. The bride was bragging about a poem she wrote to put inside her wedding program. It was written from “her parents” reminiscing about their little girl growing up and getting married. This bride was so proud of HER poem that she read the entire piece on air.  

Up to this point, I had watched all the shenanigans in disbelief; but after her ‘parent poem’ bragging; there was just an inexplicable sadness that washed over me.  I didn’t know if I was pity sad, disbelief sad, or genuinely sad for the friends and family caught in this bride’s orbit.   

Was she genuinely so insecure that didn’t believe her parents could write a poem about how much they love her? OR Was she genuinely the most narcissist person to ever walk the planet, thinking her parents couldn’t write a poem as ‘perfect’ as hers?  I still don’t know.

Now its truth time mamas; what side of this bride’s narcissist control spectrum do you find yourself on? … Here comes the tougher question… Would Jesus agree with your self-assessment? Do you surrender your problems to Jesus? Is this before or after your have tried and failed?  Or tried and made it worse? Or tried and messed it up so bad that only Jesus could fix your problem?

OR perhaps your issue is feeling unworthy. Do you believe Jesus really loves you? Mamas, would you trust Jesus to write your love poem? 

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